Have you ever done something you knew was right. And you hoped people would understand. You hoped they would eventually see things through your eyes. You had hoped you would not be alone. You thought you needed others to feel like you were doing what is right.
And then you realized that was not going to happen?
What next?
Standing alone is hard. But when you know you are never truly alone, it is possible. You can step out against the current and do what you were called to do even if no one stands with you. God created us to need Him. And while I do feel He wanted us to have Christian friends and family to support and care for us, when they won't stand with you...STAND ALONE. Don't back down. Jesus is enough. He is in you and with you no matter how alone you begin to feel. He is loyal...He's not going anywhere.
The past few years, God has asked me to live in a way that most people in my life did not understand. And if I am being honest here, I do not always understand it either. My life is complicating. I have a lot of days where I wished that I could just go back in time to when I had friends, I had family, my days were predictable....and now....most days are a giant battle. A battle I would rather not fight, but I am. When I try to explain my life to others I get raised eyebrows, blank stares, and of course, my personal favorite, unsolicited advice.
But I will not go back. It's lonely here. When He entrusted me with something hard...something others did not understand...something that might change everything, I had to let go and not worry whether I could get people to join me. And I am very slowly learning how to not be ashamed of this life He has called me to. I hope to say with confidence someday that I survived. He was enough to walk me through it all alone.
"But I am not ashamed , for I know in whom I have believed, and I am now convinced that He is able to guard until that Day what has been entrusted me." 2 Timothy 1:12
