There are those days....those days that just plain hurt. You wake up worn out. You dread. You drag. You question.
And as an experiencer (yep, don't even know if that is grammatically correct - using it anyway) of days like this...5 in a row to be exact, I can say it's OK.
Why?
Because God knows!
In fact He not only knows, but He planned these days FOR ME. He knew I needed them. (No. I haven't the foggiest idea why.) He wants me to hurt. I know you are thinking I am loosing it about now....so I will try to explain.
I am weak. I am worn. I fear. I fail daily. I get tempted to give up. I get tunnel vision and can't see the good in anything. I don't want to DO anymore. I just can't see past myself.
And all that pain/frustration brings us to a point where "I" just isn't going to work.
"I" won't try anything because it might be hard.
"I" won't look to Him because he just might ask me to do more.
"I" will say no to just about anything.
So HE is trying to get me to the point where I quit fighting to be an "I". Because He can do wondrous things through someone who has exhausted every bit of them self. (Not that I have....pretty sure there is still plenty of "I" in me. Scarey!)
So if today hurts...it's OK.
Job 13:15 "Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him..."
