I forgot to dread getting out of bed to a little girl who disliked me. I forgot to rehash each day to see what I had done wrong or right with her. I forgot to get annoyed every time she ran to a stranger for love instead of me. I forgot to lay in bed every night relieved to have few hours of time away from her. I forgot to resist the urge to glare back when she glared at me. I forgot to pray every night that God would make sense of all the frustration, fear, and anger that oozed out both her and I. I forgot...
.....because one day, when I wasn't paying attention God answered.
She forgot that she didn't want me for a mother.
I forgot she hasn't always been my daughter.
The other night I looked over at her sitting with her dad and siblings and couldn't possibly imagine what life would be like without her.
I think from that moment 3 years ago when I looked over at the ultrasound machine and realized that I was indeed not going to have another girl...there was this little girl about to be born in Poland that God had planned for me.
So no matter how incapable you feel, no matter how hard it might be, no matter how difficult it is to make sense of, no matter how frustrating each day plays out.... just forget....forget that you "can't possibly do it" and remember HE CAN.
"And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for My strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore with I rather glory in mine infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
2 Corinthians 12:9
"And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work." 2 Corinthians 9:8
